This 2014

Wala na akong introduction kasi, ang sappy lang pag ganon.

Aaminin ko na super nagpapasalamat ako sa LM Family ko. Super masaya and blessed na nakilala ko kayo.Given na yung word na “blessed” ay hindi ko ginagamit pero wala ng ibang word na feel kong magagamit ko para idescribe ang presence nila .Kela Tim, Jaemi, Den, Dianne, King, Ace, Louie. Blessed to have these peeps. 2 years younger sila sakin pero iba yung talino nila at passion

Para sa mga boys and girls back home. I’m sorry kung hindi na ako nagpaparamdam. Kasalanan ko ‘to at for my own selfish reasons. Gusto ko kasi sana muna na magtatag ng foundation ko. From June palang, sinabi ko na sa sarili ko na babaguhin ko sarili ko in the best way that I can. Noong bago mmag2013, sinabi ko na ifofollow ko na ang dream ko na mag-law school, natupad naman siya dahil pinalipat na ako ng Dad ko sa Manila to take up Legal Management. Ngayon. Alam na alam niyo kung ano ako sa Laguna, by the words of my HS teachers, “matalino, pero tamad.” Gusto ko sana magexcel, at feeling ko di ko makakamit ‘to pag palagi akong nauwi or nagpapakita sa mga taong tinawag ko naring pamilya at tunay na kaibigan. Gusto ko kasi maibalita yung news of excelling one big chunk at a time, hindi lang yung piece by piece. Gusto ko rin kasi maging proud sila, at masabi ring kaibigan nila ako. Ayon kasi gusto ko. Gusto ko rin pag may kailangan sila, may maibibgay ako. Information man, or ganon.

Napakaselfish at napaka-vain ng aking reasons, pero totoo.

Secondly, sa mga taong kaibigan ko talaga bago pa ako lumipat sa Manila, sila Kat, PB, Vanessa, Mari, Rae, Samie, Abi, Sab and others nasa back ng head ko pero di ko matandaan. Thank you. Thank you so much (Ah! Si Phil, si Kat D, si Cor, et al)

Kung wala kayo, hindi rin napursue yung dream ko na mag-aral sa Manila. Thank you for guiding me around. You guys are so awesome, and I love you for that.

For my health, aminado akong nagkaroon ako ng vice this year. Pero gradually tinatangal ko na, about my weight,nawalan na ako ng konting kgs dati, and I’m trying to take my weight down. So starting january, magtatangal ulit ako ng pounds feeling ko maganda ‘to kasi, nagdodorm na ako at controlled yung kain ko. maganda ‘to.

Okay, ngayon, sa 2014 rin, aaminin ko na I’ve lost some people, when you gain, you lose. parang law na ‘yan eh. For that, I’m sorry, and I don’t think I need anymore reasons to ask any of you to stay (taray) pero totoo. I think people leaving is a sign that they’re not comfortable anymore, or their wants are not being given. More or less, baka yung time, or baka, may iba na silang endeavours. For that, I understand completely. Di naman ako magdadrama sainyo, and more or less pag magkikita tayo, it would be the same as before. parang walang nangyari. friends parin. ganon. I don’t hold grudges since hindi naman tantamount siguro yung nangyari para di na magusap. so same same

for the people who have been there for me since day 1, thank you so much.

2015 is going to kick major ass. maganda ang feeling ko sa 2015 rin kasi. feeling ko it’s my year. ewan ko ba. pero feel ko, aayos yung lovelife ko eh. deh hahahahahahaha

Hello.

I have been  writing my novel for almost year now, and it has come into my attention that it is already November, and sad to say that I’ve already written a few chapters because of problems in academia and personal struggles in terms of health.

In light of this, I have decided to ease some pain in my eyes and take out a big chunk of procrastination. I would be deactivating some social media accounts until I feel the need to bring it back up again. I just don’t feel like doing anything that hinders me from reaching my goal, that’s it.

Also, I’ve found out that I get a bit pissed off at some people’s posts. So much angst and hate in terms of rebellion via the internet and sharing stuff that isn’t necessarily true or only based by one’s judgement without any substantial evidence to back it up. What can you say? It’s the people who drowns in one’s ignorance.
By 2015 I wish to atleast drop a few pounds, and have worked on my novel, atleast, halfway done or finished. That’s it.
If anyone wants to be kept updated, I’d still be in this blogging platform

inb4 artista

no, i think we are entitled to atleast update our loved ones in any platform. some people just jazz it. Parang social climber rin kase pag ganon. No. This is about me changing and this is one of the most humble thing that I could think off. I cannot text every single one of the people I know, so this is how I’m going to do it.

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Waking Up: The Most Fragile State The You’d Love

I just love the thought of someone waking up. maybe it’s because of the unruly hair, the morning breath, the squinted eyes, and other things that go when you wake up in the morning. I find it special when you see someone sleep, moreover when you see that someone special wake up.

It’s not the kind of waking up that means, in a hurry to go to work kind of waking up, I mean the kind of waking up right before a lazy sunday. You just wake up and see that person in one of their most fragile state, when the body just realized it’s another day to wake up.

It’s the most serene thing that you could see. 

Manila Log: First Day

Today marks my first day in Manila and I can say with utmost certainty that I adored my first day here than my first day in College in Laguna. 

 

What I like about my dorm:

 

It’s quiet. No one makes a ruckus when it’s unnecessary. Maybe it’s because everything you do that may cause a ruckus costs something. Even the smallest things like making the people in charge open your days amounts to 5 pesos.

 

People around here don’t really care about you unless you’re in the same quarters. So pretty much I don’t know people here, and I kinda figured out that I won’t be getting to know a lot of people here.

 

Food here is cheap (unlike the rent) which pretty much is what I was looking for because I’m actually learning to save, compute, and input  what I spend here for the next 3 years.

Not much is going around. Outside the dorm, everything’s feisty and fast, here, it’s pretty much slow and relaxed.

 

First day of classes.

 

So I had an agenda of looking for band members. THis s what I said.

 

 

“Hi, my name is Neil Alfonso T. Bautista, you can call me either Neil or Al. I am a transferee and shiftee of Colegio de San Jan de Letran in Calamba. My hobbies include writing, I am currently writing a novel. And I play in a band. If anyone wants to form a band with me, you are more than welcome to” I said.

 

Then, as people were introducing themselves, the people who heard my cry for having a band in Manila, they introduced themselves with having a certain interest with the band topic. I found a drummer, keyboardist, bassist, and guitarist. WHICH WAS AWESOME!!!!! THEY REPLIED TO MY PLEA OF HAVING A BAND AND THEY RESPONDED!!!

 

The professors are amazing and witty and I cannot stress this enough I am liking my Uni <3

 

 

Manila Log: First Day

Today marks my first day in Manila and I can say with utmost certainty that I adored my first day here than my first day in College in Laguna. 

 

What I like about my dorm:

 

It’s quiet. No one makes a ruckus when it’s unnecessary. Maybe it’s because everything you do that may cause a ruckus costs something. Even the smallest things like making the people in charge open your days amounts to 5 pesos.

 

People around here don’t really care about you unless you’re in the same quarters. So pretty much I don’t know people here, and I kinda figured out that I won’t be getting to know a lot of people here.

 

Food here is cheap (unlike the rent) which pretty much is what I was looking for because I’m actually learning to save, compute, and input  what I spend here for the next 3 years.

Not much is going around. Outside the dorm, everything’s feisty and fast, here, it’s pretty much slow and relaxed.

 

First day of classes.

 

So I had an agenda of looking for band members. THis s what I said.

 

 

“Hi, my name is Neil Alfonso T. Bautista, you can call me either Neil or Al. I am a transferee and shiftee of Colegio de San Jan de Letran in Calamba. My hobbies include writing, I am currently writing a novel. And I play in a band. If anyone wants to form a band with me, you are more than welcome to” I said.

 

Then, as people were introducing themselves, the people who heard my cry for having a band in Manila, they introduced themselves with having a certain interest with the band topic. I found a drummer, keyboardist, bassist, and guitarist. WHICH WAS AWESOME!!!!! THEY REPLIED TO MY PLEA OF HAVING A BAND AND THEY RESPONDED!!!

 

The professors are amazing and witty and I cannot stress this enough I am liking my Uni <3

 

 

Tonight– I feel alone. I don’t know why though. I’m not the kind of person who gets sad when no one’s talking to me. I do it all the time– not talking to people. It’s been like this since I could remember. Maybe it’s because I’m an introvert. Not wanting to talk to people not because I hate to, it’s because I don’t have to. My life isn’t as exciting as people would tell you. I live in a world where the internet is basically a 24/7 life support mechanism and I’d crack knowing that I won’t have it. I tried deactivating so many times because I know I don’t care enough to know what’s up with who or what. I’m a social animal with an introvert sense and maybe I like talking to people more online than I do in real person. 

 

 

I think I’m sad because knowing I’m not talking to anyone in this time where I’m not doing anything.

 

 

Ang Aking Paglisan.

Sa aking paglisan.

 

                Kung di mo pa nababalitaan, o wala ka lang talaga pakielam sa buhay ko, lilipat na ako ng college. From college to university. Bago-bago ng course. Ganon. Bakit ko nga ba gusto lumipat? May factors ba? Ganon? Biglaan ba ‘to? Ieexplain ko na lahat ‘yon para ‘di ako paulit-ulit sa mga nagtatanong.

 

              Biglaan ba ‘to?

                               Hindi. Sa totoo lang, planado na ‘to, naghihintay nalang talaga ako ng “go signal” mula sa nanay at tatay ko. Di kasi sila yung ganon ka-open minded sa mga ganitong bagay, yung mga paglipat and stuff. Ayon. Siguro nakaka-isang taon na yung pagplano kong paglipat. Ang mindset ko kasi bago yung pag-lipat, “Tapusin ko nalang ‘tong course ko, tapos lipat nalang ako ng iba after ko gumraduate.” Napaisip ako, oo nga naman, ganon, pero di naman ako ganon kasaya sa kinuha ko.

 

                E bakit yung un among program yung kinuha mo kung ayaw mo?

                                Nanay ko ang pumili ng course ko, di ako. Pero noong una mejo okay lang sakin kasi pinupuri ako na ganon, ganan. Pero noong mga oras na major na, nawawala na ako Nagbebreak-down. Lalong pumapasok sa isipan ko, “Gusto ko ba talaga ‘to?” Alam mo yung feeling na pilit? Pilit yung pinapasok mo sa utak mo? Maarte kasi akong nilalang. Kung ayaw ko, di ko talaga pinapasok sa kokote ko.

 

                Ano pa ba yung nagpalipat sa’yo?

                Actually, marami eh. Ayaw ko i-detalye kung bakit, pero may mga oras na yung kakulangan ng professor, yung mga maling naipwestong professor, yung mga activities, program itself, mga kasama sa classroom, ganon. Mga ganong factor. I-pro and con ko man, laging nagwawagi yung mga con kapag nililista ko. Alam kong saying yung dalawang taon, pero, mas saying kasi kung ipupursue ko yung bagay na ayaw ko. Diba?

 

                Paano yung mga taong tumulong sa’yo sa program mo dati?

 

Okay, liniwan ko na may mga taong tumulong sakin sa program ko (Kung nagtataka kayo kung anong program ko, gusto ko talagang itago, iwas discrimation kung baga? Kahit college ko, itatago ko. ) Nagpapasalamat ako. May mga teachers, soon-to-be-professors, mga estudyate sa isang batikang unibersidad ang tumutulong sakin paminsan. Sa mga naasa na ganon ang magiging propesyon ko, ngayon palang nag-sososorry na ako. Sorry kasi medyo nasayang yung effort niyo sakin, pero gusto ko lang linawin na kung wala kayo, baka di ko natapos yung mga courses, at baka babagsakin ako. Maraming salamat talaga.

 

                Di ko alam kung paano kayo mapepayback, lalo na sa isang teacher ko na excited na yun nga ang magiging propesyon ko. Nakakalungkot man, Ma’am, di talaga. Sorry. Sorry sa mga words of encouragement mo na tila di rin naman pumasok sakin.

 

                                Saan ka ba papasok?

 

                                University of the East o San Beda. Yun yung pinagpipilaan naming ngayon.

 

                                May mamimiss ka ba sa college mo na iiwanan mo ngayon?

 

                Meron. Marami-rami. Kahit sabihin niyo na konti lang kaibigan ko, masasabi kong tunay sila. Di ko sila ipagpapalit, at ang masakit nga doon ay iiwan ko sila. Kay Yukari Mizunuma, Eric Paulin, Stephen Lai, Francis Quezon, Rajin Baloran, Bryan Balatayo, Dayanara at Ruby, Art Poblete, Education people na katamad isulat pa, salamat mga kaibigan sa College. Kung wala kayo, baka corny na yung stay ko sa Letran. Ang unti niyo, to be honest, kasi di naman kasi ako pala-kaibigan. Medyo introvert kasi ako. Pero, Sinasabi kong tunay na mami-miss ko kayo.  (Di ko na sinama yung high school friends kasi let’s be honest magkikita’t-magkikita tayo juskopo.)

                Mamimiss ko yung pagkain sa College, kahit medyo mahal. Yung death march mula Chowking haggang sa school sa sobrang init, yun. Yung Uric acid on a stick, o yung mga isaw Yon, mamimiss ko. Maraming salamat sa Mary’s Joy na laging bukas noong summer classes naming kahit mahal ang tinda niya, utang na loob, medyo murahin niyo naman paninda niyo.

 

 

                                                Nagsisisi ka bas a desisyon mo?

                Noong una hindi, pero noong nagpadismissal na ako, ayon, doon na ako nangamba, nagsisi, ito siguro yung feeling na nakuha mo na yung pinaglalaban mo for the first time. Ito na kasi yon. Magbabago na yung flow ng buhay mo. Pero ngayon medyo carry naman, kailangan ko nalang ipaglaban ulit yung bagong program sa university na pupuntahan ko. Fingers crossed.

 

                                May mga kakilala ka ba sa Manila?

                     Oo, nakilala ko sila sa concert ng fall out boy tapos nagging long term friends ko sila. Galing nga eh.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Bago ang lahat, sa mga walang instagram accounts: Ang video kasi sa instagram, di yung isang pindot lang, tuloy-tuloy na yung video. Sa instagram, press and hold para ma-record. Yun lang. Kakailanganin yan para sa kwento ko.

 

 

Siguro parang after ng popularity ng vine (6-seconds na video), biglang naglabas yunginstagram kung saan nagupdate yung instavideo. Kung saan, ginaya nila yung concept ng may video na sa instagram, ang maganda lang, mejo mas matagal.

 

Wala naman akong instagram noon nung nilabas yung update na ‘yon. Kasi, Nokia C3 pa yung phone ko non, pati yung point na di naman kasi talaga ako ganon kainteresado dati sa instagram or pag-gamit sa phone talaga. Pero, napanood ko kung paano nagwork yung video ng instagram na sinabi ko nga bago ko simulan yung kwento ko.

 

So ito na nga, may nagpost na tao, tapos yung buong video niya, kala mo nagseselfie siya. Ewan ko ba kung paloko niya ginawa or what, pero sabi niya kasi, kala niya nakacamera, pero patuloy parin yung video.

 

Kung baga, sa buong 16 seconds, “akala” niya raw na nagseselfie siya, yun pala, nakavideo.

Unsolicited Tips in the Gym? A How-to guide

During the first weeks of me working out, I’ve had troubles focusing on the machines because some people there are always trying to socialize with me. Telling me, “Wow, you have a lot to lose” or “Hey, do these instead” Let’s make some things clear. They aren’t my trainers. They are strangers. They are the people who would like to chatter more, rather than actually working out. Because I hate being constantly being conversed to when I am in the middle of something, specially working out, I changed my schedule, and always go to the gym in the morning, when the gym is near-empty, or empty. This way, I could grunt all I want, I could go whenever. 

 

But how do you ignore these people who give unsolicited advice? Without them being offended in any way?

 

1. Smile. Just smile at them. Don’t tell them anything. Just move on after smiling. They would get that as a “Yeah, got it”

2. Wear earphones. I do this. Personally, this is also a way to pump up my reps. This is where they would notice the earphones and would stay away from you. They know you have no means of socializing with anyone. If you catch them talking to you, and you’re on your earphones. Don’t mind them. They would notice that you’re listening to music at that time.

3. Go to another time in the gym. If you’re flexible, ofcourse.

 

People who give unsolicited advice means well, but ofcourse, always remember that you are on a different path. And when you see that the person who is giving advice isn’t good, why listen?

 

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I have been trying to take out a few pounds of my body. To be honest, I have had difficulties with it. The point that I need to take out a few pounds means that I have to lessen what I normally eat and to do exercise.

 

Im proud to say that after a few checks on the scale, and 2 months of gym time and poor, but slowly  effective diet skills, it has come to my attention that I have lost 20 kgs or 44 pounds.

 

Yes, your 120 kgs friend have lost 20 kgs. 100 kgs =))

I have not set a target weight yet but I aiming for another 20 kgs by the end of March, or atleast by April, with harder exercises, longer hours on the gym, and well, a better diet plan.

 

What changed?

 

> My diet is now composed of mostly eggs, chicken, vegetables, seafood (mostly fish)

> water. i always buy water instead of my usual soda back then. saved me loads of money, and calories.

> when I started in the gym, i had troubles even taking on 5 kgs of dumbells, now I can go 20 dumbells. i can run a little longer.

> i can fit onto my old clothes! and well, I my recent clothes are loose. My pants now need belts.

 

so progress.

 

i have not talked to anyone in a while, or had the pleasure of conversation for anything in a long long time. i want to focus on this as soon as i get better with my arm (accident)